happiness

i am sooooooooooooo happy! John (that boy i was talking to) asked me out so now we are dating! omg he makes me so happy!

there is a song i wanted to post a link for but its not letting me so just go to YouTube and type in Hoobastank- The Reason [with lyrics on screen+description] exactly like that and you will get it.

eeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppp i am so HAPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

OH! my psych test results came in and i went to go over them yesterday. i have Major Depression and Generalization Anxiety Disorder (GAD). it basically means that i am severly depressed and never NOT anxious about anything, therefore anxious about EVERYTHING. i am also slightly impulsive.

HAAAAAAPPPPPPPYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

this whole thing with John is so simple. its not complicated at all. i met him that night at Daikin and it was like something clicked. we got to talking and it was like i had known him all my life, and it made sense for us to date. its a good feeling, like........... love at first sight?

SCHOOL IS OUT/ Happy News/ Sad News

SCHOOL IS OUT BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLZ YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am talking to someone. a boy. :) he is really sweet and nice and funny and charming and sensetive and shy but still outgoing and into some of the stuff i am into and *takes deep breath* i really like him. :)

my best friend left yesterday to move to Arizona. :,(

EXAM WEEK

exam week at school. four days of vigorous testing and then no school friday. i hate exam week. there is so much pressure, and then i still have slight drama with some friends. and im on my period, so ill be cramping while i test.

oh exam week, how i HATE you.

eh

so much crap, so little time. best friend is moving to Arizona. Meghan ran away again, and i am done worrying about THAT! i am just so ready for this nightmare they call school to be over.

messin with the ol'blog

i am having FUN with all the new blog stuff im finding, like fonts and stuff. yay!

songs

wrote a song tonight. my first original that i have ever performed. i was pretty proud of myself. and then sarah sang her new original Butterfly Pinned to the Wall.

she didn't mean to out do me. but she did. i sat there and heard the lyrics and thought, "those are the kind of lyrics i would write. why can't i? why can't i write songs?"

cuz i can't. at all. and whats the point when you are always over shadowed by your sister? she doesn't mean to, it just happens.....

she has been caught. she is home. she has called me. she is fine. but i am so tired of Meghan's crap. i still love her, cause she was my first best friend and i would be completley lost without her, but i am sick and tired of having to deal with her crap.

does that make me a bad friend?