blah. 'tis my feeling and emotion right now. blah.

went to the Daily Brew tonight after the band concert. ran into four peeps from school, two whom i didn't know, one who has a hard-to-put-into-words guy i know from french, and a guy who's dad knew my mom before his dad died. his girlfriend didn't seem to like the fact that he was real chatty with me and my sister, and she kept giving me these looks. these 'back off he's mine' looks. like HE would ever even THINK about cheating on her with ME of all people. i laughed in the bathroom for ten minutes!

i have a truck. a read 2000 S-10 Chevy named Lucy, buz she is one quirky little red-head. (if you don't get the name, i will pray for you.)

now entering tornado season. blah.

birthday surprise

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!! so guess who is at our house RIGHT NOW????? Lauren, Rory, Mr. Time, and Aunt Connie!!!!!!!! what an icredible surprise! and we got the prettiest rings with our birthstones!!!! and bracelets from Aunt Connie. the rings are from Lauren.

maybe this won't be a bad birthday after all.

blarg

Happy Single's Awareness Day.

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day. Hate it.

Happy Valentine's Day.

no Carpal Tunnel

so it turns out that i had a bone out of place in my hand. how weird is that? and my entire body is sore from yesterday. guess what i did?

I RODE HORSES!!!!!!!!

i am back to riding lessons, and since it has been about three or four years, my muscles ache! i mean, a person uses close to every single frikin muscle riding a horse, and it hurts when you're not used to it! but Mr. James, my instructor, told me i am better now than i was four years ago!!!!!

how amazing is that?!

100th POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY FOR ME!!! *does celebratory dance*

so, this is my 100th post! and i have some great new to talk about in it........ CREDIT RECOVERY IS DONE WITH!!!!!!!!!!

sorry. my hand is hurting too much to write anymore. seeing the doc today. wish me luck?

Carpal Tunnel

Carpal Tunnel Syndrome is pressure on the median nerve- the nerve in the wrist that supplies feeling and movement to parts of the hand. It can lead to numbness, tingling, weakness, or muscle damage in the hand and fingers. Typing on a computer keyboard is the most common cause of Carpal Tunnel. Aslo driving, writing, painting, etc.

Symptoms include:

• Numbness or tingling in the thumb and next two or three fingers of one or both hands
• Numbness or tingling on the palm of the hand
• Pain extending to the elbow
• Problems with fine finger movement (coordination) in one or both hands
• Wasting away of the muscle under the thumb (in advanced or long-term cases)
• Weak grip or difficulty carrying bags
• Weakness in one or both handi might have Carpal Tunnel.

i am esperiencing every symptom except pain to my elbows and the wasting away of the muscles. i am soooo worried and my mom isn't really. she thinks that i am doing what my cousin does and worrying over nothing. but it hurts to even type this blog post. my left hand has been hurting for at least three days, maybe four. is no one worried?

i'm in pain.

trust issues

so, aparantly, because the computer monitor is turned to an angle that rendures it un-viewable unless you are directly in front of it means that i am doing something i am not supposed to be doing. WRONG!!!!!!!!!! i was turned in my chair, my feet propped up on the side of the piano, and i didn't want to have to turn my head in a weird way so i adjusted the monitor. now i am a lier!

i just can't be trusted, can i?

grrrrr

the fish oil needs to work faster. i am having some pretty severe mood swings, and i also just dropped a glass cup, therefore causing stress.

if i have enough birthday money i am dying my hair and getting a swedish massage.

side-affects of my stuff

it doesn't say so on the bottle, but St. Johnswart can give you a headache. i have to take it three times a day, and i have already gone throughout the day with a horrible migrane! im gonna have to talk to the therapist about that.

grrrrr...........

new stuff

so, my psychologist started me on two herbal supplements. St. Johnswart for the depression, and Fish Oil for the mood swings. i honestly beleive that with those two meds, the therapy, and my horseback riding lessons that i am going to take up again, that nothing else should go wrong.

i have started to have anxiety attacks. within the past two days, i have had about three major ones and even more small ones. that freaks me out, but i shall persevere! did i spell that right? XD

Groundhog Day and the pilot light

HAPPY GROUNDHOG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! and our pilot loght went out last night so there is no hot water....... :(

Useless Credit Recovery

i am in credit recovery to recover the last six weeks of ALGEBRA 1B!!!!! so why am i doing ALGEBRA 2 work to recover points for and ALGEBRA 1B class?

the school system has problems.