luck?

i wish i could spend more time with John than i really am. and we are always at my house on the computer listening to music and watching him play games on facebook (and stealing small kisses *_*). im not saying that that isn't fun, i just wish we could go on a DATE date, ya know? i am gonna have some money soon, so im gonna try for a movie date. wish me luck?

HE'S BAAAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

JOHN IS BACK FROM CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg i am sooooooooooo happy! we spent half the day yesterday together. i couldn't help but snuggle with him almost the entire time!

my boy is back. i am happy!

sadness upon sadness

John is at JROTC camp for five days. i didn't get to see him FOUR DAYS PRIOR HIS DEPARTURE!!!!!!!!!! i am SOOOOOOO depressed.

i woke up crying this morning, crying and saying his name.

is that too much too soon? cause i really do care for him.

happiness

i am sooooooooooooo happy! John (that boy i was talking to) asked me out so now we are dating! omg he makes me so happy!

there is a song i wanted to post a link for but its not letting me so just go to YouTube and type in Hoobastank- The Reason [with lyrics on screen+description] exactly like that and you will get it.

eeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppp i am so HAPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

OH! my psych test results came in and i went to go over them yesterday. i have Major Depression and Generalization Anxiety Disorder (GAD). it basically means that i am severly depressed and never NOT anxious about anything, therefore anxious about EVERYTHING. i am also slightly impulsive.

HAAAAAAPPPPPPPYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

this whole thing with John is so simple. its not complicated at all. i met him that night at Daikin and it was like something clicked. we got to talking and it was like i had known him all my life, and it made sense for us to date. its a good feeling, like........... love at first sight?

SCHOOL IS OUT/ Happy News/ Sad News

SCHOOL IS OUT BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLZ YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am talking to someone. a boy. :) he is really sweet and nice and funny and charming and sensetive and shy but still outgoing and into some of the stuff i am into and *takes deep breath* i really like him. :)

my best friend left yesterday to move to Arizona. :,(

EXAM WEEK

exam week at school. four days of vigorous testing and then no school friday. i hate exam week. there is so much pressure, and then i still have slight drama with some friends. and im on my period, so ill be cramping while i test.

oh exam week, how i HATE you.

eh

so much crap, so little time. best friend is moving to Arizona. Meghan ran away again, and i am done worrying about THAT! i am just so ready for this nightmare they call school to be over.